eh

im getting cranky n moody n LONELY

coz it has been a while since

1. i baked
2. i saw my cats
3. i open the fridge n saw something edible (something i didnt buy using my own money hahha)
4. i visit my grandparents house
5. have lunch with ANYONE
6. i loose significant amount of kgs
7. i saw white rabbits
8. stepped on grass
9. peeped out of my bedroom windows to see my cats laying around.
10. bully my little cousins

basically it has been a while since im HOME.

although im home.. i dont feel like im HOME.

i miss my hometown 

i need something to do.

n im gonna force myself to do something tomorrow (instead of waking up at EXACTLY 9.39AM everymorning (no alarm i swear!) only to sleep back at noon coz i seriously dont haf anything to do, n fight with my evil self whether i should or shouldnt exercise)

im gonna call my grandparents early tomorrow morning

bye n night

p/s; yes masih lom bukak contact lense n aok nya dah kin kering

p/p/s; seriously do NOT like to go out at night, the stress n pressure is too much ( i can literally feel my parents ngerepak-ing nyuruh ku balit gik sedangkan mak bapak sikda sitok pun.. the guilt is too much for me to bear) but THANK GOD for the great company, makes it all worthwhile =)